Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Beyond stressed but learning to trust...


There is so much going on and so much to do and not enough time and life is crazy! Make it stop! Okay so there may be a light at the end of this long dark tunnel, but the fact that there might not be is what gets me. Let me explain... We are buying a condo as explained in a previous post. Well, we now have an escrow close date yippee! There is also a catch... we HAVE TO close by Monday October 18th or the entire deal is off. That's right people we close by Monday or we are homeless. Ok fine not homeless, but everything we own is packed in boxes and stored in my parents garage. Frustrating to know that we are so close to moving into a place that we own and having everything for it either picked out or bought already, but it all might come crashing down if paperwork doesn't get done fast enough. I know that I have been learning alot from this entire experience. Trust is the major lesson learned. In this entire situation we have had no control over when things get done if they get done and how long it should take. It's taken longer than we wanted, the bank has taken forever to give us answers.... it's been a growing experience we'll leave it at that. God is in control of everything. He knows where we'll end up. He has a plan for us! I've been praying for patience and trust that no matter what happens something will work out and we will be taken care of. The selfish part of me wants this to all be over on Monday so that we can move in and move on with life and have time to be excited for the new things to come. New baby, new pace of life (slow I'm hoping!), and a bunch of other stuff. Life has been so crazy that I feel like our family is choking and being deprived of just being together. Just us. Privacy! Oh privacy.... maybe someday. But for now we will be patient constantly in prayer that His plan is perfect. Because it is! He knows far beyond what we know and He has the control. So maybe soon I will learn that I am the one stressing myself out and giving it all over is the easiest way out of that dark hole....